A RAY OF SUNSHINE
Updated: Apr 17, 2019
There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning.
In time we know, it’s all a show … As time goes by, we laugh and cry
It’s in the past.
This could start it was the dark rainy night, but it wasn’t. I was a hot bright Thursday morning, August 13th, my deceased father’s birthday, and I was traveling to work on Interstate 10 (I-10). Up to that morning I had literally danced at various times of night throughout the different floors of the Chevron buildings while working nights and weekends during my 31+ year tenure. Late at night in a big empty high rise or office it’s easy to feel how special it is to work for such an enormous company. That’s how I felt for so many years. My closest friend used to regularly marvel at how much joy my job gave me.
I had been a golden girl. I fought for women’s equality in the early years. I was the first woman in law in Chevron’s Law Group promoted to my grade level in the late 80s. I was part of the first generation of professional working women that flowed into the employment ranks in the 70s. This job was my dream, my life.
Driving into downtown Houston from the Westside there’s a Smith’s Street exit on the curve of I-10. That Thursday morning, I remember that moment well. I remember staring at the concrete wall which sparkled brightly in the sun, then there was this thought… what if there was someone younger, less expensive, with less baggage, management considers both extremely bright and trainable?
There was. They could. They did. There was certainly nothing that those retained couldn’t do or learn or be that I already could do, had done, and did, but in my Company’s view my costs were much more than theirs. Hence, goodbye Tana. Don’t touch anything on the way out the door but get out now and never return. We will ship you what we think is your stuff. We will keep your work product and anything we think is ours. It happened. Being pushed out of a job happens to a lot of people.
What happened to me at that moment? It felt like I stopped living. Yes, I had a Dark Night of the Soul, and I wrote about it in my blog titled the same published on February 17, 2018. During that blog we talked about certain basics that everyone should do when they are down. Here’s the link for my website containing that information, Dark Night of The Soul
Today I handle what life brings to my door. The story that I wrote above is an accurate recount of my past. It is just that. It is in the past. It cannot and does not define me or make a statement as to who I am. The story is just a story in my life. There are lots of stories in my life. I have survived them all.
As a coach I am now here to help those seeking to bring a ray of sunshine into their own lives. If you were my Client, we would spend time reviewing your life. We’d review your list of To Dos that you are currently facing both at your job and at home. Then we’d identify where are you are taking care of yourself in the midst of all these other items. Once we’ve reviewed your situation, we will define your dreams, set your goals, make your schedule, and start getting you unstuck. As Paul McCartney says in Dominos, “We can start to begin Living in the world we’re in.” That’s day one.
Where am I now? I know the most important thing a person can know…I survive. I survive every day. I have complete responsibility to create the magic in my life. I bring the ray of sunshine in. I create how I view, how I act, and how I see the world. I create my own story now. This is story of a woman who was a very successful as a lawyer and now is a very successful coach.
I can help you move forward with your life if you are stuck in the midst of a transition from one story in your life to another. I’d never wish a tough year or difficult time on anyone, but I understand what it’s like when it happens. Let’s build you a new story. Let’s bring a ray of sunshine into your life.